The War Inside Me

TW: themes of anxiety, body dysphoria

I’m uneasy

In my body,

In my mind.

Always sweating 

Or shivering

They say wake up to the chirping of birds,

They didn't see when that became my lullaby.

Memories every second pouncing to split my brain.

All Ii want is to love and be loved,

But Ii didn'tdidnt get to learn how.

Everything too distant now

And the distance keeps growing,

Until I i am nothing but a dot on the horizon.

My thoughts are too dangerous for me,

My little joys brick-by-brick banned to me.

I get hungry occasionally,

But food doesn'tdoesnt have a taste anymore.

My to-do list long forgotten…